Joel’s Journal – September 15, 2016 – Reasons

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Still thinking about Algonquin.

Joel’s Journal – Reasons

Does anyone else absolutely love this time of year?

As a kid, I used to love back to school time. Not only because it meant I was going to be outfitted with a bunch of new clothes and a whole load of new supplies, but because there was an entirely new school year laid out before me.

Sure, there were some years where I probably gave my parents are hard time and I trudged begrudgingly down that path to school. I think those were just surface feelings though, thinking back on it now, I have this memory that deep down I was always kind of excited. Perhaps I just didn’t want to show it for fear of being deemed a loser.

What kind of kid actually likes going back to school?

With the times of heading back to school well behind me now, the feelings still remain, like the sweet smell of cigar smoke long after it has been butted out.

September always has me practically tensing with motivation. I love it because it’s almost like a reset button. Even though the massive reset button that is the end of the year is still months away, September offers me all the feelings and motivation without the actual new year.

As always, this has me thinking about finding more efficient ways to work, better ways to engage with you, readers, and obviously ways to become a better writer. I’d also be lying if I didn’t say I’m also thinking about how to make more money as a freelancer.

But most recently, I’ve been thinking of how to find the best way to engage with you, or for us to get on the same page.

Sure, I’m thankful for anyone that visits this page and reads the words I put here. You’ll actually never know how happy it makes me. Even when my site only gets 10 page views in a week. That’s still worthy of a fist-pump in my books.

I still think there’s a disconnect here. Sure you read the stories I’ve toiled over, and you read my blog posts about toiling over those said stories. What’s missing though is the why.

Why I do what I do. The simple answer is because I love to do it, but that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about deep down, the reasons for doing everything that I do.

Why I write fiction, why I’m a journalist, why I’m a photographer.

There’s a lot of aspects to that, part of it is talent, part of it is what I want to leave behind in this world and making it a better place, and part of it is simply circumstances as I grew up led me in this direction, and partially some of the tools I was born with being put to good use.

That’s the why I’m talking about. My end-game essentially, or a personal manifesto if you will.

I truly believe that when I share that with you, it may open your eyes to not only my writing and the work that goes into it, but it also may teach you a few things about me as a person. I think I just need to find the best way to put it into words.

That’s the part I think is most important. For those who don’t already know who I am, it may be hard to really engage with the things I post here. Partially because it’s simply written words and photographs, but also because a part of me is always slightly guarded when it comes to writing on the Internet.

Worries about security, privacy, saying too much, being judged, they’re all mixed into a thick cocktail that forms the mortar in the wall that keeps me from sharing everything.

By writing about my why, I think it may help kick a massive hole in that wall, and I don’t see a better time for doing that than in September.

More to come.

Thanks for reading, truly.

J.J.W.